Mood:  chillin'

I tried to tell you i love u

But the words were hard to find 

I'm always thinking about you 

You're the one on my mind 

Oh why do i act so shy forever hiding my face 

I should learn to laugh and not cry put myself in my place 

There were times i tried to kiss you but 

Something told me no 

You wanted me to hold you but i 

Kept letting you go 

I'm afraid that I'm not the girl 

You've searched for all these years 

I will kindly leave now don't you cry 

Try to hold back you're tears 

It's been so long i haven't seen you 

For quite awhile 

When i think of how we met it only 

Brings back you're smile 

I remember when i held you then and 

Told you we'd never part 

I love you then i love you now and 

I'll hold you in my heart 

Mood:  bright

Wow, Today has been totally a long day and i am not sure how i am going to make it through all the fucking changes in life that going on. I just wish that i could find it in my heart and soul that things are going to be alright but i guess god has a better play for me as i am talking to anything. I hate not knowing what he has plan for me and when me and him talk in my dreams he tells me not to worry because he has my faith and soul in his hands and he is going to lead me in the right place of my mind and everything.

Right now, Things are right were i want them to be and i just don't have to worry anymore and that great knowing that i have my whole life in god hands and he also has my soul and helping me deal with my life and how to make things better because that is what i really need in life. I really thought life was confussing but i guess i was totally wrong on that.I just want things to go back to normal that way i just don't have to worry about all the trouble things that i am going through in my life and it's kind of crazy because you just don't know when things are going to be alright or not. I just want my back to feel better and my leg as well but i know that not going to happen anytime soon so i have to pray for anything that comes myway.

Actually, I'm tired of having all this problems and confusion in my life because it makes me sad and then i start to cry because there nothing i can do to make things better for me and everything. I just don't know how to feel anymore i am so tried of feeling so depressed all the time and it's not my fault if you know what i am talking about. I just don't know how to handle it anymore because the more i try to figured it out the less i can't understand my own problems and everything. I'm just thinking that things are totally going to be worth waiting for because of the things that i am thinking about all the fucking time and it's crazy at times you know. I'm just trying to be happy for a change and it's hard to do when you got people putting in you're life all the fucking time and everything if you know what i mean.

Well, My life is so confussing at times and i just don't know what things are going to be totally wrong for me at times and everything. I just want things to go back to normal again because the wrong thing to say about my life is it's all fucking screw up if you ask me and everything. I'm not trying to go on with nothing that i can't handle but right now it's kind of weird at times because i am not sure how to handle things and i am totally loseing my own mind because that just my crazy life and everything. I just want to move on and never forget the things that really happen in the back of my mind. Well i guess that just how things go in my life i guess i am not sure anymore i'm just thinking that i need to go on with my life ad forget all the things.

Well, Everybody, I'm going to end this here for tonight, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going in my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now.