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Tuesday, 17 February 2009

I Wish
Mood:

blue
Now Playing: light on by david cook

I wish i could hold you

Feel you're lips touching mine

I wish i could tell you

How you're special and you're fine

I wish i could be with you

I wish you really cared

I wish that all my tears would stop

I wish i wasn't scared

I wish love didn't hurt

I wish tears didn't sting

I wish me heart was strong

But it's the most fragile thing

With all these things i wish

I can't help but cry

Because at night when all is dark

I look up in the sky

I wish my wishes on a star

But as i softly close my eyes

I see my love

I see you're lies

So tonight when i wish my wish

That wish upon a star

I'll wish that all my pain will stop

I'll with that love is not too far

Posted by michiganstategurl25 at 9:42 PM EST
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Monday, 16 February 2009

Key to my heart
Mood:

down
Now Playing: these dreams by heart

It's those eyes that make me smile

That voice that make me melt

This over whelming feeling i'm lost in

A feeling i've never felt

Can't help but stare

At those beautiful eyes

Can't help but get

Those butterflies

Can't help but thank you

For the things that you do

Can't help but smile

When you say i love u

Can't help but kiss

Those nice pink lips

Can't help but frown

When it's you i miss

Can't help but go crazy

Over you

These over whelming face

Are oh so true

I would walk miles

Just to see you're face

Would cross the whole wide world

Just to fee you're embrace

I would go anywhere

Just to hear those words

I would go everything for you

Because you are my world

I have completely

Given you my all

I will be there

Whenever you may fall

I will be there

Throught thick and thin

I will be there

To be you're everything

So here's my heart

I give to you

You have the key

Like i do

Please solemnly promise

To never break it apart

And that you will always have

The key to my heart

Posted by michiganstategurl25 at 5:48 PM EST
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Sunday, 15 February 2009

Long Distance Love
Mood:

flirty
Now Playing: I think i am in love with you by jessica simpson

Long distance love

When it hurts so bad,

Why does it feel so good?

I wish this all make sense,

I wish i understood.

Not having you here with me is tearing me up inside,

But i can't stop thinking about you

No matter how hard i try

You know how i feel about you,

And i know i want to spend the rest of my life with you,

But it's hard to do when i can't even be next to you

Why does it gotta be so complicated?

Loving you feels right,

But at the sametime,

Knowing i can't have you keep s me awake at night

I just want this to be simple,

I just want you here with me,

To look in to you're eyes,

Be held in you're ... then i'd truly be happy

Right now this distance between us is out of our control,

But i'm still hoping one day soon,

I'll get what i'm wishing for

Posted by michiganstategurl25 at 7:27 PM EST
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Friday, 13 February 2009

The things i love about you
Mood:

cool
Now Playing: ships of heaven by black hawk

I love the way you make me laugh

I love the way you make me cry

Tears of joy stream from my eyes

As i hear you're voice, a loving surprise

I love you when you're angry

I love you when you're sad

I love you when you're glad

When you tell me of the day you had

I love you truly

I love you deeply

Ever since the day

I let you meet me

I missed you when you left

I miss you now more then ever

Making a mistake that i regret

Hoping that you are a forgiver

Without you, my life is strife

But now i ask for a second chance

Be with me and start a life

Together forever, and eternal dance

I wait for you as the day s go by

My love is growing inch by inch

I cannot wait to see you again

But i wait for you, and you're warm kiss

I love u

Posted by michiganstategurl25 at 1:36 PM EST
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Wednesday, 11 February 2009

Letting go
Mood:

flirty
Now Playing: thinking of you by katy perry
The room was dark
The room was drear
And all i could feel
Was a rush of fear

The shades were down
And it was hard to see
But i could hear her heart beat
And it comforted me

Her eyes were closed
Fast asleep was she
Her breathing was steady
But soon she'd pay a fee

The air in the room went stale
And that's when i finally knew
Things had been held over time
To see if her strength had grew

But she was old
she'd served her time
And i knew at that exact moment
That this would be her last of mine

Her breathing slowly sub sided
And the pulse came to a slow
I knew within minutes
She would quietly go

I thought of all her triumph
I thought of all her pain
Then i realized i couldn't let go
Because of me she left in vain

The look upon her face was pleasant
It was how you'd want to die
But looking upon her gladdened face
I couldn't help but know god was passing

A moment later the heart beats stopped
And i was all alone
In that place where my mouth went dry
And death had set it's tone

Posted by michiganstategurl25 at 7:58 PM EST
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Tuesday, 10 February 2009

Alone on sea
Mood:

chillin'
Now Playing: light on by david cook

Alone i lay on a wooden raft

Alone i stay in the dark

Alone i pray to survive

Alone i may not survive

Alone i look out the sea

Alone i wake up on the sea

Alone i seek out for help

Alone i may not survive

Alone i eat my dry food

Alone i drink the salty water

Alone i sit in the cold

Alone i may not survive

Alone, yes, alone i stare at the storm

Alone, yes, alone i live on the sea

Alone, yes, alone i wait for the rescuse boat

Alone, yes, alone i may not survive

Alone, yes, alone i pray to be safe

Alone, yes, alone i call out for help

Alone, yes, alone i get on the boat

Alone, yes, alone i was rescued

Alone, yes, alone i lived on the sea for months

Alone, yes, alone i walk ashore unaided

Alone, yes, alone i continue to held the guinness world record for survival at sea

Posted by michiganstategurl25 at 1:26 PM EST
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Monday, 9 February 2009

What's going on with me
Mood:

down
Now Playing: something in you're mouth by nickelback
Oh my god, Right now my back is hurting and it borthering me and i hate that feeling. I really wish that the pain would really go away and never come back but i know that never going to happen because i really hope they fucking really fix my back because it's totally not worth having the pain and everything. Things are totally mess up and i am upset and i just don't know why because i guess i could say that i am going to so what i feel is right about my family and the members that are in it because i am sure you know what i am talking about. I know that i am feeling depressed and stress and i hate the feeling trust me. I really wish people would not go if it's not there time in life because that totally scared me because i am so scared that i am going to lose the people that are close to me and it's not something i want to feel right now if you ask me and everything. I have already cried today because that is the only way i know how to deal with my emotions and everything.

Actually, I think that things are going to be alright in my family because i have faith in god and everything. To help me deal with the pain i am feeling as i am feeling it right now and everything. I just really miss a lot of people in my life and they have gone and went out of my life and that just totally wrong if you ask me. I just wish that i did not feel like i am losing everyone around me but the more i think about it i just don't know how to feel anymore and it's not health for me anymore if you know what i mean. I know that i am going to be alright i have to have faith in my self and i feel like i don't sometimes because of all the stress that i am feeling it's kind of crazy if you are living my life and in hell at the same time and everything. So i just don't know what to do anymore and it's kind of crazy but i am crying out for help and none of my friends understand where i am coming from and it's crazy if you ask me again and stuff. I just don't know what to feel and it's hurts so much that things are totally not worth it anymore and i have to understand that.

I'm so depressed it's not even funny anymore. I really don't think that i can handle this keep depression anymore and i can handle the up and down emotions but how can my friends and family handle my emotions because i am having my own problems and it's not even my fault this time and everything. I just wish my family understood me because then i would not be feeling the way i am and i just don't understand all the stuff and shit that is going on because of all the different things in life and everything. I just don't want to make a big deal out of this because that would totally fucking suck if you ask me and everything. I just don't know what to do anymore and it's not something i want to face in the long run but i think that i am and everything. I am totally lost for my own words but i am totally scared as we speak about things that happen in my life and i just wish that it would not if you know what i am talking about.

Well Everybody, I'm going to end this here for tonight, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now.

Posted by michiganstategurl25 at 7:11 PM EST
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Saturday, 7 February 2009

What's going on with me
Mood:

don't ask
Now Playing: lights on by david cook
Wow, I can't fucking believe how some fucking people act in this fucking world at all. Last night i was so fucking pissed off that it was not a joke at all because people are so fucking rude if you ask me. The thing is my best friend was the one that got fucked with and that not cool if you ask me again. I just wish that there are something i could do for her but i think i should keep my mouth shut and things like that because i just don't want to cause trouble of my own that i can't talk my way out if you know what i am talking about and everything. I'm still fucking pissed off but if then fucking mess with her again i am going to have to fucking say something because i am never going to fucking understand why people do the things they fucking do but it's going to stop with my best friend and shit. I mean the girl cross the line by saying something about my friend son and that just totally wrong.

I mean it totally fucking aggravates me so fucking much that people don't have anything else to do in there life but fucking judge people because of the way they fucking live there own life and shit. I mean i get judged all the fucking time because of my weight issues that i have and i just wish people can look at me as a person and not a fat bitch and everything because that hurts a lot. I just don't know what people are thinking but i do know that it's kind of crazy at times and everything. I really hate people that accuse people of doing things that they don't do that other fucking thing that screw up. That also totally get on my nerves somethings as well. I have lost a lot in my times but i don't want to see my best friend go through that as well because that just other thing that makes me angry at times if you know what i am talking about and everything. I really hope that Amanda knows that i do have her back and i know that she won't fucking back stab me in the back. I think that life is going to fucking show you what you are messing at times because the more i think about it the less i just don't care about life and it's things that it has for me if you know what i mean.

Currently, Think they just don't know who the fuck they are messing with because it totally get pissed off that people can act the why they do and everything. I just don't understand people and there fucking actions and it's going to cost them something one day and everything. I'm not going to fucking waste my fucking time on people that fucking dumb if you ask they need to fucking get a clue and stop and see and look around and she the people that they are hurting if you ask me i am not the one that acts like that but when people pissed me off that a different story if you know what i am talking about and everything. So i am hopping that things are going to be okay because that how i feel in my heart and soul and everything and i am just praying and stuff.

What really annoyed me is the fact that i just can't stand how fucking people act when they just don't care about the other person that they are hurting and everything if you ask me i totally have lost a lot of things in life but the one thing i do know is that faith is the one helping me deal with a lot of things because that how i see things in life and everything. So i am never going to understand that if you ask me life is short and you have to pray for what you want in life and if you don't have the money to fucking get it then i guess you are fucking totally screw if you know what i mean. So that is what i am feeling right now in my heart and soul and everything if you ask me. I just want to move on with my life and knowing that i have a great head on my shoulders and i know what i want things are going to totally be different in life because that how i see things in my life.

Today, Is my one year an two month anniversary to my lovely boyfriend i miss him like crazy if you ask me i am just sitting here thinking about him and everything. Wow i can't believe that i've had a boyfriend for this long and i am totally happy about it i guess i am not sure how to handle it but i am working on it trust me i guess i am scared about a lot of changes that are coming on my body and i just wish that things could be more better then they are if you ask me i am not help less but i can do things for myself if you ask me i am who i am again and that is all i need to know about my life. I'm afraid that things are not going to be the way they are and the same but i think that i can handle anything that through at me because the more i fucking think about my problems the less i am not so fucking scared anymore and that is totally good thing in my book.

Well, Everybody, I'm going to end this here for today, And i'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now.

Posted by michiganstategurl25 at 3:27 PM EST
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Friday, 6 February 2009

Always
Mood:

happy
Now Playing: Make up you're mind by theory of a deadmand

The love in you're heart

The pain in you're eyes

To the depths of you soul

To the success that you strive

The tears that you shed

The dreams that you make

The walls that you climb

And the promises you break

The people you love

The people you hate

People you meet

And the friends that you make

Hours of waiting

Time that's been lost

Seconds are passing

And you're heart pays the cost

You're soul is beautiful

You're mind is great

The places you go

The heart that you take

When you feel all is lost

When you're heart brakes again

And you must reconsider

The feelings within

Allways know

Never forget

The time we shared

Our very first kiss

I'll always love you

No matter what may come

I'll always love you

For all that you have done

Posted by michiganstategurl25 at 10:22 PM EST
Updated: Friday, 6 February 2009 10:51 PM EST
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Thursday, 5 February 2009

What's going on with me
Mood:

blue
Now Playing: Alone by Heart
Well, I'm just hanging out in my room thinking about putting on some clothes and taking new pictures of me with my hair down and everything and i also have to put on my make up if you know what i mean. I'm having a great night just hanging out with my friends and everything that totally awesome if you ask me and i just don't have to hear anyone bitch at me for things that goes wrong in my life and that not how i want to handle things in my life as you can see and everything. I just could not be any more happier then i am right now in my life because i finally figured out things and i am totally not wasting my time trying to understand how fuck up things got at one point in my life and everything.

Right now, Things are right were i want them because i am finally going to do something about my life and not let people judge me and think that it's for my own good because it's not and everything. I'm not going to let someone ruin my fucking happiness that just fucking wrong if you ask me. I have ever right to have a life as my own and not have to fucking worry about the things that are going on in life. I just know that things are totally worth my time if i knew what is really going on at the time it's happening if you know what i am talking about and everything. I just wish that things cold be right where i need them to be because then it's not a waste of my fucking time and can just move on and know that things are going to be alright in my life time and everything and that fuck up if you ask me again in a few days then i might have a different answer for you i guess i am not sure anymore.

I just want to have a normal life that not going to hurt me or judge me in the long run. I'm just trying to forget all the bad things that happen to me in the past and move on from it i don't fucking thank that a fucking crime if you ask me and everything. I'm who i am and that is something that people need to fucking understand and forget that i have a fucking mind of my own and i know how to fucking speak my own mind when needed and everything. I think all my ex boyfriends hate me for that because the more i think about it the less i don't fucking care comes to my own mind and it's alright by me to fucking have my own say in life and everything that my fucking down fault if you ask me. I just know what i really want in life that not going to stop me for getting that trust me on that. I just wish that people could understand that and not hurt me because of it and it's crazy to think that i don't know what to do anymore and i am lost for my own words in time but who fucking cares on how i fucking feel because they just want to jump on my heart and soul and hurt me again and again.

Wow, I can't believe that Friday is tomorrow and the weekend is here and i am going to party it up like there is not tomorrow because i need to fucking have fun with my friends from work and everything. I'm not going to lose anything because the most important thing in my life is god and how he treats me is the best thing in life because the more i think of him the less he lets me down and that is the best fucking feeling i could not explain it anymore then i can write it i guess. I am who god as made me and the fact is that things are going to change with me and i am going to have the faith i need that is if i get it from my family and everything and that is all i need is my family support in my life. I'm not sure on what i am going to do in life because the more i sit and fucking stress over it it's going to kill me or make me go to hell i guess i am not sure anymore and i can't fucking stand it.

Well Everybody, I'm going to end this here for tonight, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now.

Posted by michiganstategurl25 at 10:48 PM EST
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