Mood:
a-okNow Playing: roll on by kid rock
wow, I am just hanging out in the office on my dad computer because i am bored out of my mind and i just don't know what to do with my self anymore if you ask me i am crazy bitch right now. I am just thinking about the things that are going on in my life now things are never the right thing but i guess i have to move on with my life and not worried about all the crazy things that are going on. I just wish that i knew what to do most of the time i really just wish that things would never be so hard on me. So right now i am just hoping that things get better for me then i would not have to care so much about what other people say about me because i know who i am and everything and that should matter. I just want things to be alright and not have to be scared all the time if you ask me.
Well, Things are going to be alright i have to have faith in myself and just know that my friends are a big part of my faith in god and everything and i am telling you what i am just a happy go lucky kind of girl i guess but i have my reason for my angry and stuff like that and everything. I have things on my mind that i should not be thinking about because of all the trouble i have been having i just don't know what to do with my life and it's crazy to think that i am going to move on with my life and everything. So i have so much thinking to do and it's crazy to think that i thought that everything would be alright.
Actually, I have so much more to give and not so much going on if you ask me. I just thought that i had everything all fingured out and everything and i am not going to go through this pain again not in my life time if you ask me i am down with pain and the emotions that come with it. so i am hoping that things are going to be alright in my life time because that how i see things in my life. I just feel like things are never going to be where i want them to be because off all the crazy facts that i find out and i am never ready for anything that goes on if you know what i am talking about. So how am i going to move on when i don't really know what is going on in my life and it's kind of weired if you ask me. I have lost my own way in life and i need to follow god and his way to live in life because i feel that in me.
I totally hate being annoyed about things and it's making me do things that i never thought i would do about things and it's not like me to be acting like this if you know what i mean. So i just feel so betrayed about a lot of things and i never know what life is going to bring me or break me because that is how i fucking think about things and i never understand my life and how fuck up it is and i can't live this lie anymore because then i would be doing things that i could not handle anymore. I just feel like things are never going to be alright even if i am not thinking about it anymore.
Well Everyone, I'm going to end this here for tonight, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now