What's going on with me
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: something in you're mouth by nickelback
Wow, I have stay up way to late and i am not even tired right now. I'm trying to finish my dolphin rug that i  have been doing with my own hands. I just wish that i knew what is going on with my best friend and everything. I'm just really worried about her and she like my very own sister if you ask me. I just wish that she was not to depressed and everything because i totally miss her like crazy. I just hope that she knows that i am always going to be there for her because i love her to death.

Basically, She is so wonderful and i am glad to call  Amanda Dewitt as my best friend because she has help me deal with a lot of my problems and i like that. I just want to be there for her as well but she needs to come to me and talk to me and then i can see if i can help out in anyway and everything. I just want to show my love for my best friend and that something amazing if you ask me. I just want things to work out for her in her life and that not something it's going to be rough at times but i know that she has it in her to move on with her life.

Right now, I'm thinking about going to bed now because now i am going to get tired and i have to be up early because i have class this morning. Then i am off to the gym to work out for a few hours and just not think about all the fucking shit that is going on because i really don't fucking think i can handle it anymore. So i am just hoping for the best for Amanda because she is the one that needs it and i am not going to give up on her never would i ever do that.

I'm not against anyone right now but myself and the problems that i face in life because i am totally lost and i just don't know how this fucking happen. I just feel like my boyfriend don't fucking care about my feelings and i just wish that would be the case but i guess it's  my fault in life but anyway. I'm just scared on things and i just wish that things would not be so bad for me as i am talking. So right now i am just thinking out loud and hoping that things are going to change for me and i just want someone to love me for me and not judge me and i feel  that my boyfriend is doing that right now and it kills me inside trust me.

Well Everybody, I'm going to end this here, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now

What's going on with me
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: Bad Girlfriend by theory of a deadman
Wow, Today was the day that i just did not feel like i wanted to get out of bed this morning. I just don't know what is going on there but i am just who i am i guess i am not sure. So things are going to be alright i have faith in my own self if you ask me about things happen in my life then i could tell them that it still fuck up if you know what i mean and everything. I am sure you all know what i am talking about when it comes to life and stuff like that if you know what i mean. I just don't know what i am thinking most of the time but right now i am hoping for the best in my life and everything.

Actually, Right now i am just hanging out in my room being bored tonight as useful. I just don't know what i should do about the things that are going on and everything. Right now i am just thinking about what i need to think about and not worried about all the crazy things that happen in my life time and  i just don't want to lose what i have in my life and everything. I just don't think about what i really want in life because i am so worried about all the crazy things and i am never going to understand anything that is going on i guess i am lost for my own words in life and everything.

What is really annoying me right now is my confusion and how much i hate it and everything. I just want to spend the rest of my life not worrying about things and it's crazy because i actually thought that i had everything all figured out and everything but i guess i really don't. I feel like i am losing everything around me and its not something i really want to feel right now. I just hate that i have to do some confessions in my life and everything. I just feel like i have lost who i once was and now that i am finally trying to so hard and i am crazy to think about all the shit that happen in my life but right now it's kind of like i am scared to move on in life and everything.

I'm so worried about my best friend Amanda Dewitt and i just wish her the best and i am going to stand by her through everything that is going on in her life and everything. I'm going to pray for her because that is what she really needs in her life and everything. I don't like that she is sad and depressed and that just not right and everything if you know what i mean. I feel like me and her are connected at the heart because we think alike and we act like real sisters and everything. I would be totally lost without her because she has help me think about a lot of things.

Well Everybody, I'm going to end this here, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now.

Touch Me
Mood:  flirty
Now Playing: i'll never break you'r e heart by backstreet boys

Baby please just touch me

From my head down to my toes 

Baby touch me everywhere 

Take you're time real slow 

 

Oh i love you're fingerstips 

Leaving a tail of fire 

Baby please just touch me 

You are my one desire 

 

Trace a path down to my breast 

How they ache and swell 

How my bodies burning up 

Whenever you're fingers dwell 

 

Now you're hand moves lower 

My legs i willingly spread 

Just feel you're fingers there 

Followed by you're head

 

Baby please touch me 

See how weak i am 

And all because of touches 

From my lovers hand 

Alone Forever
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: enter the sandman by metallica
My feelings make me alone
Alone forever

My friends don't know my feelings
My family don't know my feelings
I am alone
I can be in a crowed yet alone
I walk alone
I talk alone
I live alone

My feelings are what seprate me
My feelings make me alone

I wish to be whole
I try to bring myself together
I become strong in the process but i'll still be
Alone forever

My Lonliness
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: down with the sickness by disurbed
Alone i sleep
And alone i wake
Alone i dream
And alone i ache

Alone i live
And alone i cry
Alone i think
And alone I'll die

Alone i try
And alone i fall
Alone i fail
And alone i sit

Alone i was
Alone i am
And alone I'll always be

Cries
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: quit playing games with my heart by backstreet boys

Every night someone cries

Every night someone dies 

Every night someone says their goodbyes 

 

People  cry all their tears 

Try to forget all their worst fear

Hoping that he will answer their prayers 

 

Children are always alone 

All night parents are on the phone 

Cause their children  are running away from home 

 

Blood runs down someone's face 

The world is a crazy place 

People are disappearing with out a trace 

 

This society is corrupted 

The government  has erupted 

Leaving pain uninerrupted 

 

Hate is the fuel in everyone's soul 

Everyone tries to reach their goal 

But they just keep falling deeperin the hole 

 

No matter how hard you try 

People are always going to die 

And children are always going to cry 

Loving you
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: mirror mirror by m2m
Loving you
It's like feeling soft soft rain
Fall on my face

Loving you
It's the comfort of my heart

Loving you
Makes me laugh and smile at the same time
It's make my heart warm, it gives me life

Loving you
It's all very new to me
It very good

Loving you
To feel you're had in mine
To feel you're breath slide along the side of my cheek
To feel you're heart pounding beneath my ear
As i rest my head upon you're chest

Loving you
So many words to describe it
Yet so few

Loving you
I want to take care of you
As you take care of me
I want hear you're troubles and you're joys
I want to encourage you
as you choose to follow life

Loving you
It is an honor to be trusted so
With you're deepest , darkest worries secrets
With you're most heart felt dreams

Loving you
Sharing little moments with you
Looking into one an others hearts
Reading each others souls
Loving me

Loving you
There is nothing else i want
But to be held by you

Loving you
It is such a rarity to find
It is such a blessing to do
It is such a inspiration
It is Such a dream come true

Loving you
It is not sheer perfection
Despite what you may want to hear
It is love
It is right
No matter what you mad do
Or how upset you we may get
Our love will win
It will bring us back

Loving you
Needing you
Wanting you
You, you

Loving you

Rip my heart out
Mood:  down
Now Playing: with you by jessica simpson

You're words

They cut like a pickered tree 

You do not get 

What you mean to me 

I'm sorry if ever gave too much away 

 

But you are worth it all 

I would rip my heart out 

If you didn't beat me to the chase 

The pain you cause 

It is sweeter then feeling 

No connection to you at all 

I love u 

I love u 

 

Blood sweat and tears 

We give 

Yet we grasp to our fears 

Like newborn child 

If hating you is all i can do 

THen i will 

Because you won't let me love you 

Like i should 

 

I'd give a year off my life 

Just to see you're eyes again 

They spoke words like fire 

You take me higher and higher 

I would rip my heart out 

If you didn't beat me to the chase 

 

I can't replace you 

Forsake you 

Make you or break you 

You mean so much to me 

Lonely Heart
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: god love her by toby kenth
At night i break down and cry
And sometimes i don't even know why
My loneliness is driving me insane
So is my lonely heart the one to blame?

Heart I'm calling on you
Give me the strength to pull through
But still i must believe
There's another heart out there
Waiting for me waiting for me

I'm not sure which way to go
Is it my heart that i should follow
Heart I'm so unsure
And now i need you more then before

Heart I'm calling on you
Give me the strength to pull through
But still i must believe
There's another lonely heart out there
Waiting for me waiting for you

Tell me I'm not the only
Broken heart feeling lonely
I know everything heals in time
But can time heal this lonely heart of mine

At night i break down and cry
And sometimes i don't even know why
My loneliness is driving me insane
So is my lonely heart the one to blame?

Heart I'm calling on you
Give me the strength to pull through
But still i must believe
There's another lonely heart out there
Waiting for me waiting for me

Heart i know you're my friend
And one day we'll find love again

Love Hurts
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: why by jason aldean

You told me that you loved me

Why did you leave me to cry i the cold 

You swore this time was different 

Why does that line seem so old 

 

You told me i was the only one 

Who could make you feel that way 

You told me that you cared about me 

So why didn't you stay 

 

All the nights you laid with me 

Alone in the dark in my bed 

Now i finally realized 

You were just messing with my head 

 

Love is such a powerful world 

A word people often misuse 

Something they take for granted 

Something they beat and abuse 

 

My wounds run deep inside me 

There's blood all over the place 

I think I've really lost it this time 

I'm ashamed to show my face