Mood:
sadNow Playing: Roll on by kid rock
Well, My best friend Sam called me today and told me that she had cancer and i was totally shocked on the phone when i heared that and everything. I just don't know what to do with myself and i have lost everything if you know what i am talking about. I just feel like i am going to lose her and i am not sure how i am going to handle that. I already lost my second grandpa to cancer and everything. So i am scared that i am going to lose her as well and i am going to be totally depressed if that happens. I just want her to get better and hoepfully that i can spend time with her like i have told her and everything and i feel so bad about breaking most of my promises.
I really feel like i am being a bad friend. I just don't know why i am feeling that way but i guess it's all because of my looks and how i act with my friends and it's crazy to think this way i know but that is who i am and i'm a very emotion girl and i just don't want people to think that i am not going through a hard time because i am and that is just what i am feeling at the time i am feeling it and everything. I know that my best friend sam is battleing cancer and i just don't know how to handle it and i am lost if i lose her because she has helpme with alot of shit and everything.
Right now, I wish that i could talk to my other best friend amanda, And tell her what is going on because i am totally don't know who to talk to about this and i just don't want alot of people to know what going on you know what i mean. Do i think that i should have done something about this yes i do but there nothing for me to do now but stand by her stand and be there for her because that all i can do. I love my best friend sam with all my heart and soul and i am never going to forget her i love u.
Well Everybody, I'm going to end this here, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now.