Mood:
not sureNow Playing: come down by bush
Wow, I can't believe that i am still up and not even tried that should be something if you ask me and everything. I'm just hanging out and i thought i would come and updated my blogs and stuff because that gives me less to do tomorrow i guess you could say and everything and i am trying to be happy for once in my life. So I feel a lot better because i know that my best friend is going to be alright. I just have to have faith and i know that she is going to make it through anything i promise that. Every since she told me on the phone i have been scared to talk about it with all my other friend and i just don't know how to deal with it like i should and everything.
Well, Right now bed is looking good right now because i am trying to stay awake as long as i can but i am sure that is not going to work in my faver if you ask me. So i am just doing my normal thinking and i just wish that i could feel things but i know it's hard when you are trying to block things out of you're mind and everything. I'm really trying to block all the things that happen in my past out of my head so they won't haunt me anymore because that is how i feel about that and everything. I really miss one of my ex boyfriends because he was a very sweet heart and we use to be really good friends and everything and i am not sure if we are going to get that back working on it.
I just don't want to lose what i have in my life because that the thing i am so scared about losing what i have like my friends and family and everything. I have to go on with my life knowing that things are going to be alright in my life. I just feel lost in this big ass world and its crazy but that the true. I've never knew that i could have all this problems in my life and think that i could figured them all out but that not lie it's really hard if you ask me and everything. I am losing so much but i think because i want to have new start in life and that is what i am doing as i speak.
Well, Everybody, I'm going to go for now, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now.