What's going on with me
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Second chance by shine down
Well, Today has been a totally nice day outside and i can't wait to get out and go for walks and stuff like that if you know what i am talking about. I am just thinking that things are going to look up for me i have total faith in everything that goes on in this world i just believe in god and the things that he does and work for. I'm just thinking about how god really works but he answered some of my prayers for my friends and family and everything if you ask me i am good about praying.

Tomorrow, It is going to fucking suck if you ask me. I really don't want to go to the doctors but i have to and everything. It's just because i am diabetic and they have to check my blood sugar and everything and that alright by me. I just don't like the other things i have to do but that alright i'm going to get use to that if you know what i am talking about and everything. I just hate going in there when they fucking dick you around and tell you one thing and do the other thing if you know what i mean and everything. I'm just trying to get over that you know.

I really miss my best friends Amanda peck, Sam, Amanda Dewitt. They have been there for me through a lot of my problems with my boyfriends and i just wanted to say thank you and hopefully they won't judge me because of the problems that i do have and everything. I just want them to know that i am thinking about them and they are in my heart and soul and we are all going to be best friends trust me and i am going to hang out with  Amanda Dewitt soon because i miss her like crazy and i talk to her like every night if i can.

Actually, I'm just hoping that i can go to bed at a good hour tonight because i have to be up early in the morning and i just don't want to be late for  the doctors if you know what i am talking about and everything. I really hate that but anyway what can you do when you are running late and you just don't know what you are going to do that how my life is if you ask me it's crazy but i know the feeling. I'm going to forget all the bad things and just look upon things and just hope that things are going to be for me that how i see things in life and everything.

Right now, I just don't want to lose what i am feeling and thinking about my relationship that i am in now and everything. I just want things back to the way i knew they could be and it's hard to keep thinking this way but i don't  get respected like i should and he calls me all hours of the night and it's crazy to think that i am going to lose my own mind as this point in time. I love him to death but i need my space and my time and that is  all i am going to say.

Well Everybody, I'm going to end this here for tonight, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now.