Mood:
chattyNow Playing: last name by carrie underwood
Yesterday, Was to fucking awesome and i had a great time. My dad help me practice my parking in the driveway and it was kind of fun just spending time with him and stuff. I can't wait to do this again because it's going ot be even more funnier and everything. I'm just hoping that i am going to have a great weekend coming up because that is all i am looking for if you ask me. I'm just lost with out my friends and i just wish that things would be alright with me. I just wish that things would not be so hard on me and that i just could go on with my life knowing that i have things in oder and everything but that not enough for some people that i know in my life. I just wish that i knew how things are working for me because it's crazy to think about this all the time and just don't know what to do anymore and i am about to lose my mind if i keep thinking about it.
Tomorrow, Is other day that i have to think about all the crazy things that are going on in my mind and i hate feeling so confused about things and everything. I just don't know what is going to happen in my life but i know that i can't keep thinking bad thoughts all the fucking time. I have lost so much in my life and i am tired of feeling like this all the time. I'm never happy about things because i am always in a sad mood and it's not right i just want to be happy and smile all the fucking time if you can understand where i am coming from and everything. I just don't feel like things are going my way anymore and it's not right of me to think about this. I just want to know what it's like to love someone and show them how much i mean to them.
Right now, I'm talking to my best guy friend his name is bobby and we have lost so much and we are finally coming back to each other again and that is just great and i am happy. We are talking on yahoo messenger and we are re talking again because he has missed a lot of stuff that is going on with me and i know that i should catch him up but it's hard to do that if you know what i mean and everything and i hate for people to miss out and everything. I just don't want to lose him again because i would be totally lost and i use to tell him everything and i am going to start again because how do you know if you really love that someone you tell things to. I just don't know what to do and i am thinking about all the different things in life and it's crazy.
Actually, I have to keep my head up high and know that when things get hard you just got to old you're own and hope that you get the answers that you need in life. So i am hoping that things are going to be alright i have faith in myself and i am not going to lose that because it would be totally wrong of me and i am not going through that again i just can't. I just want love and i am going to get that i have to keep my head up that is all i am going to do.
Well Everybody, I'm going to end this here for tonight, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now.